This was my heavy baggage when leaving for a pilgrimage to Paray le Monial, France. I was without any expectations and kind of numb. Well, there was nothing really extraordinary or supernatural that happened to me during the pilgrimage. It’s just that there’s something which seems to me a central thing. I realized that God doesn’t want anything special. He doesn’t need 5 rosaries a day, he doesn’t ask me to be happy all the time, he knows that I’m not perfect. This little realization gave me a very special peace. I was confirmed that there is someone who really fully accepts me and doesn’t ask me the impossible. I also realized that God wants me to share with him everything that I live - just because he loves me. I can be lazy in the shadow of a tree, I can cry when loosing a friend, I can tremble out of incapacity during a difficult examination, but especially I can offer to God what I live today.
Have you ever gone through this feeling of being so tired, that you just couldn’t do anything at all?
Well, I was there. It was a time when everyone wanted something from me. The professors wanted knowledge. My employee expected enthusiasm, new ideas, smile on my face - I also had so many things to do in my parish. Everyone wanted a piece of me so I didn’t find time neither for myself neither for God. Everything that I did, wasn’t good enough - at least that’s what I thought.
I know that I can bring all my worries in front of the altar of the Lord, all my pains, every moment of not feeling good enough, as well as all the beauty which I see around me or simply happiness because I have my life, my faith and my country. Even the fact of being able to attend the mass. It is spectacular how many things I can give to God. If I let him into my heart he can find something for him!
Lea from Slovenia